Megs Journey

New Beginings and new Seasons!

2011-04-06T01:50:00.000-07:00

Well it’s been a while since I have posted but I am about to announce something very exciting! It’s been almost 4 years since we have tried for our 3rd child and hubby and I have now agreed that we are going to look at other alternatives to growing our family!
So we are in our phase of Adoption and really really excited about what God has instore for us. WE have thought, prayed and seeked God for a long time about this and know in our hearts that this is what God wants for us. It’s always been something on our hearts and so we have complete peace in our hearts. We are busy compiling our Profile now for the agency to present to the Birth mother, I didn’t think it would be so hard but it is so personal and you are really opening your heart to her. We have received letters already from our family members for the profile and I have been in a ball of tears already. God is going to entrust us with a beautiful bonny baby to take care of and love and feel so pregnant in my spirit already! He has already been growing the love in my heart for our Adoptive baby whom we have not met yet! Isnt He is amazing!!!!
So I will update you on the process and the trials and successes on Adoption as we go along 
I found this little saying and thought I would share it with you, it touched me deeply!!

It has been said that adoption is more like a marriage than a birth: two (or more) individuals, each with their own unique mix of needs, patterns, and genetic history, coming together with love, hope, and commitment for a joint future. You become a family not because you share the same genes, but because you share love for each other.

The long 2 week wait :)

2010-08-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

Well Paul and I definitely managed to cover all our bases this month....heheheheehe but along comes that dreaded 2 week wait..lol! I am sure all of you going through this feels like the weeks are going in slow motion.

Tomorrow I am due to go for the Progesterone test so will fill you in if I did indeed pass an egg. Secretly I am really hoping and praying that I did but its all in Your hands Lord! Your perfect timing, your perfect will for our lives!

Good news is that since I am on Metformin I do not have the bad side effects that I experienced when I was on Glucophage so yay for that!!

Something about Hope to encourage you :)

God's Grace

"What gives me the most hope every day is God’s grace; knowing that his grace is going to give me the strength for whatever I face, knowing that nothing is a surprise to God."

Rick Warren

Till next time :)

Welcome back to me :)

2010-08-10T01:36:00.000-07:00

Oh gosh, I cannot believe that its been 2 years since I have posted. My life has been a rollercoaster of emotions. Paul and I are still trying for baby no 3. It has really been extremely challenging as Dana is still in our bed now 3 years old...lol. Apart from that, its been a struggle, a spiral of emotions. Ive been back to the doctor and my PCOS is still there so I started my Glucophage again and Clomid. In these 3 years we have gone all natural so its time we start the other methods God has put in place to enable us to conceive. Time is ticking away, I am 31 years old and Dana needs a brother or sister :)

This is my 3rd cycle on Clomid so lets see where this journey will take me. Its been a while, so please bear with me. God knows our hearts, our thoughts, our emotions, our life, our struggles, our great moments, our not so great moments and in ending I would like to say give those moments to Jesus, He loves us so much and wants to be with us and experience them with us.

Today you are so loved by the Father, it is through this journey of TTC I realise I just cannot do without HIM, I have tried but I always come back to the Great I am. Its so easy dealing through the pain with Him, Paul and I cannot get through it without the Lover of our Souls, Jesus thank you for walking this journey with us.

Once again I look forward to giving You honour and praise for the miracle that will unfold in my life again. We have experienced miracles so for those who doesnt believe in them, our life is a walking talking miracle.

Dont give up on whatever you trusting God for. Its not our timing but HIS, not our thoughts and plans but HIS, continue to walk in your purpose set out and all other things will be added on. Never give up never give in, keep on believing.

Hope is the one thing that keeps us going, walk steadfastly in it. Its manna to the soul :)
Thanks for coming along and my apologies for not updating regularly, I promise I will be making a post once a week from here on out.
Be blessed :)

Back again on the TTC Wagon

2008-06-26T23:42:00.000-07:00

There is something about life that makes you always want to come back for more, that is the miracle of life, the joy and blessing of a child. So my dear husband and I have decided we would like to try again for Number 3. Even though our road of TTC (Trying to Conceive) has not been an easy one, there have been many brilliant moments and memories. So yes we have been through alot but I do believe every cycle is different and has its own difficulties and struggles.

Our biggest struggle this time is actually trying to Babydance. With a 1yr old sleeping in your bed still, you need to find time...lol, but thanks to God we have found time as it is on our Priority list. We felt now that Dana is 1 it will be a good time to start trying again for a sibling. So please pray for us!

On another note:
God has been working and speaking into my life so much recently. I have received confirmations on so many things and it is time I step out into the Purpose God has for me. I am so excited to do the will and calling He has for my life.

My heart is for women who struggle to conceive or have had miscarriages and losses. I will continue to pray for Our women, its a journey of pain and heartache, my prayer is for God to comfort all of us. So I will persevere and continue to ask God to send these Women into my path so I may encourage and uplift by His Word.

Ok till next time, remember God is bigger than the problem or mountain you face.
Be strong, courageous, He will carry you through.

My princess turned 1!!!

2008-06-04T06:52:00.000-07:00

So it was a very hectic month planning my sweetpies birthday and last minute planning. All and all it was a good party and turned out to be a beautiful day. I was so blessed to have all my family and friends with to share this special day with us and was thoroughly enjoyed by all!!! Ok enough talk, here are the photos from the day! Enjoy!

Much more pics uploaded on my Facebook Profile, go have a look!
http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=549724858&ref=pb

So this was my Strawberry Princess invite.

Welcome Back

2008-03-29T07:56:00.000-07:00

Yes, it is definately welcome back to me. I am so sorry that I have not updated this blog for a while, having a busy little bee zooming all around can keep one quite busy. I am very proud to say that Dana is 10 months old!. Yes cant believe only 2 months away from her 1st Birthday, and plans for the celebrations are coming along, so watch this space. I am so pleased to announce that my business has come off the ground, it is Megan H Photography, and I have been so blessed by God through this. Thank you to all of you for your prayers and support, it means a whole lot to me. So photography has been keeping me pretty busy of late, but it is such an awesome feeling to create memories for families that will last a lifetime.
Here is some recent pics of Dana, she is so busy literally running-crawling and walking along all the furniture, I dont think it will be too long before we see her take her first step.
I would love to share her First Easter with you and recent pics:

Seasons greetings!!

2007-12-19T12:02:00.000-08:00

Best wishes for the Season and May God's love envelope you all year through 2008.

Jesus is Better than Santa

Santa lives at the North Pole.

JESUS is everywhere.

Santa rides in a sleigh

JESUS rides on the wind and walks on the water.

Santa comes but once a year

JESUS is an ever present help.

Santa fills your stockings with goodies

JESUS supplies all your needs.

Santa comes down your chimney uninvited

JESUS stands at your door and knocks... and then enters your heart.

You have to stand in line to see Santa

JESUS is as close as the mention of His name.

Santa lets you sit on his lap

JESUS lets you rest in His arms.

Santa doesn't know your name, all he can say is "Hi little boy or girl, What's your name?"

JESUS knew our name before we did. Not only does He know our name, He knows our address too. He knows our history and future and He even knows how many hairs are on our heads.

Santa has a belly like a bowl full of jelly

JESUS has a heart full of love.

All Santa can offer is HO HO HO

JESUS offers Health, Help and Hope.

Santa says "You better not cry"

JESUS says "Cast all your cares on Me for I care for you.

Santa's little helpers make toys

JESUS makes new life, mends wounded hearts, repairs broken homes and builds mansions.

Santa may make you chuckle but

JESUS gives you joy that is your strength.

While Santa puts gifts under your tree

JESUS became our Gift and died on the tree.

It's obvious there is really no comparison.

We need to remember WHO Christmas is all about.

We need to put Christ back into Christmas.

Jesus is still the reason for the season.

May The Lord Bless & Watch Over You This Christmas And May He Prosper & Bless The Work Of Your Hands In The New Year

GOD BLESS

Dana is 6 months old today

2007-11-29T13:16:00.000-08:00

Firstly all praise to God for blessing her with us thus far and for equipping Paul and myself with wisdom to raise her for the first 6 months and providing us with the finances to sustain her and provide for her every need and more.

Our sweet pudding is 6 months I cannot believe how time flies by. It has been the most awesome blessed time as a mother. The experiences are unreal and every time I think I can’t love you anymore, you go and do something to make me love you even more. Your tiny toes, your sweet lips, that fragrance of your love, your soft skin up against mine, the stolen kisses, smiles and laughs, hugs and even tears, your strong willed personality, the fighting spirit in you, is what makes parenthood all worth while. So here is to you Dana, celebrating your first half year of your life!!!! We love you lots from Mom and Dad!!!!!

We also had her clinic visit; she weighs 7.1kg now and 68 cm.
At birth she was 2.7kg and 48cm.

I am going back in time, from present to the past with milestones and special moments of her...

What I look like today:

Sitting for the first time:

5 months Old: (eating my butternut)

Eating Solids for the first time:

4 months Old:

Touching my toes for the first time:

This says it all:

14 Weeks:

10 Weeks:

The day I got dedicated to the Lord:

6 Weeks and my first smile caught on camera:

5 Weeks:

3 Weeks:

2 Weeks:

1 Week:

1 Day Old:

My birth day:

Thank you so much for looking!!

4 Months Old!!!!!!!!

2007-10-01T01:01:00.000-07:00

I cannot believe how the time goes, heres updated pics of her!!

3 months old!!!

2007-09-20T01:50:00.000-07:00

On the 30th August, Dana turned 3 months old. To what started out as a 2.7kg baby, Dana has now gone to double her birth weight at 5.2kg and is 58cm tall, compared to 48cm at birth, so she has really grown!!!
All praise and glory to Jesus for reaching this milestone!

Growing and Growing!!

2007-09-20T01:13:00.001-07:00

My smile captured finally!!

8 weeks old

10 weeks old

Dana's Dedication

2007-09-20T00:56:00.000-07:00

Gosh, this was such and emotional day for Paul and I. It was an awesome feeling filled with lots of fear and reverance to dedicate Dana to the Lord Jesus and make the decision to raise her up in the ways of God and that one day she will too walk in the destiny and plans God has called her for. What a responsibility as parents, but we are confident that The Holy Spirit will be with us each day and guide us with wisdom and grace to fulfill this task. We were so blessed and our Pastor had a Word for Dana, while they were blessing her and laying hands, he said she is a fighter and will be an arrow of deliverance in the Kingdom, even in her short time on earth she has already placed strategic arrows, gosh that really got me going with the floods of tears...lol
Here are some pictures of the day.
Being dedicated:

My Outfit:

Motherhood is wonderful!

2007-09-20T00:25:00.000-07:00

I know it has been a long time since I have posted. Probably 3 months ago so please forgive me. As my caption has read that mommyhood is great, it also keeps you very occupied...lol! But from now onwards there are no excuses, I promise. Dana is such a cute baby phase now, let me share her milestones with you.

She started lifting her head at 2 weeks off my chest.
She smiled for the first time at mommy at 3 and a half weeks.
She can sit supported in a seat.
She coos and semi-laughs.
She grabs at her toys in the playgym.
She opens and closes her hand very well.
She is now eating her hands and bibs and starting to dribble all over.
She loves to socialise with people
She loves to stand on my legs and pushes down very strongly.

When you look at the miracle of a child you just see the Fathers love in the creation all the time. Her perfectly framed body with tiny fingers and toes. To be blessed to be a mother is extrodinary. I cant thank God enough each day for Dana, my miracle child. She now sleeps practically through the night! One of my most proud priveleges is being able to breastfeed her uptil now. Its a such a wonderful bonding experience that makes you all warm and fuzzy inside.

Here are some updated pictures of her, and since I have not updated I will start at 3 weeks till now.

3 Weeks old

6 Weeks old

Hope for the Day

2007-06-12T00:45:00.000-07:00

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"HOPE FOR THE DAY" from Clara Hinton
http://www.silentgrief.com
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June 11, 2007
When we lose someone it feels as if the center of our world is gone. And, when the center is gone, nothing seems to fit into place like it once did. Everything just seems to swim around and not have any real meaning or any real place to go.

It takes a long time following the death of a child to begin to fill in the empty space in the center of our world again. We know it will never feel completely right again, but with time and lots of adjustments our world can begin to fill in with purpose and meaning again.

Hope is the one thing that brings life back to us when all has been taken away. We can see hope in the budding of a flower, in the fluttering of a butterfly, and in the rainbow following the storm. We see hope in everyday kindnesses shown to us - the smile from a stranger, the hug from a friend, and the phone call from someone who cares and has not forgotten us in our pain.
Hope knows exactly when to arrive and it is never late. Hope begins to fill in the empty space, and in time we feel a comfort that we know is real. Our world that was once diminished by loss has begun to grow again.

Hang in there, and remember that the emptiness does not last forever. Hope is so powerful that it can build roots when the tree has been cut down. Hope can bring a new day when we've only been seeing night. Hope is alive and will give us new life! --Clara Hinton

"Sometimes when one person is missing the whole world seems empty, but hope is stronger than any emptiness and will fill our soul with peace!" -- Clara Hinton

"He will keep your soul." --Psalm 121:8b

Dana has arrived!!!!!!

2007-06-06T23:15:00.000-07:00

Dana’s Birth Story – 30th May 2007

We found out we were expecting Dana, after a very long difficult journey of healing the loss of our first daughter, it had taken me a year after that to ovulate and the doctor then diagnosed me with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome), and told me he cannot guarantee when I will conceive again, but that I needed to keep my stress levels down and he prescribed glucophage and clomid, which will help me to ovulate every month and regulate my insulin levels. Dana was conceived after 2 months on the prescribed medication, so she is definitely our miracle baby, Praise God!!! Her expected due date was the 16th June 2007.My pregnancy was pretty easy with no complications. The only stressing part of the journey was that my Obstetrician ended up going on sick leave, and so from week 32 I had to see a new doc, it was a bit stressful, but I took it in my stride and went with it, putting my faith in God and not on the doctor. It helped also that he was an excellent obstetrician with good credentials, so it made the transition much easier. On my week 34 appointment at the doc, he checked Dana out and said she may have to come out earlier than the expected Caesar date of the 6th of June, because the blood flow to the placenta was a bit low and he was scared she may not receive enough nutrients in the last stages of growing and she might go into distress. So he told me to come in for an amniocentesis on the 23rd May, and if the lungs were mature, he would do the Caesar the following day.The 23rd May arrived with much excitement and anxiety as she would only be 36wk3days and I was a bit hesitant with her being born early. At 12h00 I had the amnio done and a checkup. Doc then told me he will give me a call after 4pm to let me know what decision he has come to. After 4pm, he called and told me that he would like Dana to bake another week, as her lungs are not mature enough for him, and she will be better out the following week as well as the blood flow was fine, so there was nothing to be concerned about for now. So the Caesar date was then rescheduled for the 30th May 2007 at 07h30 and I would have to have cortisone injections the Monday and Tuesday of the following week before the Caesar. The Tuesday evening arrived with much joy and anxiety. DH and I could not believe that we were going to meet our precious girl tomorrow. I was booked into hospital 20h30 pm and prepped for surgery for the next morning. I could not sleep the entire evening as I had continuous heartburn and winds, so I tossed and turned the entire evening...Lol At 05h00 I was awoken to take a bath/shower as they would be taking me up to Labour Ward at 06h00. I managed to have a quiet moment before then and thanked the Lord for a pleasant and safe delivery of a healthy baby girl. At 07h00 the nurse attempted to put my drip into my hand twice but failed and my hand swelled up immensely and was really sore, so she told me she would get the anesthetists to put the drip in. At exactly 07h30 I walked into theater and got up onto the operating table where the anesthetist administered the epidural. It happened in no time and I started feeling the tingling sensation in my legs. They stared cutting me and then the Ob started having slight problems, Dana turned and was lying transverse and he was having difficulty getting her out, she eventually came out bum first, then an arm, her legs and her head last!! Even the pediatrician was helping to press down on my tummy to assist. All I remember my doc saying she is giving me grey hairs here!! She eventually came out at 07h54, crying. Her feet were blue from them trying to get her out. She weighed 2.760 kg, and 48cm. Her apgar scores were 6/10 and then 8/10 because of her delivery. They took her to the incubabator immediately after mommy had a chance to meet her to warm her up. I was totally in love and couldn’t believe she finally arrived. Her sugar levels were also low because of the glucophage that had to be taken throughout my pg, but other than that we had a very healthy baby girl.I thank God for this amazing experience once again, the miracle of life. The opportunity once again to become parents and having that awesome privilege once again. It was an amazing birth experience, despite the minor complication in theater, but was handled smoothly by the hands of the doctors, that I believe God handpicked for her safe journey into the world. There were so many ways I have seen God’s hand in this, I had a wonderful healthy pregnancy, a smooth birth, I even managed to carry to 37 and a half weeks, I ended up with a completely different Obstetrician, Pediatrician and anesthetist, hospital and nursing staff . It was confirmation to us that we were meant to have a totally different experience second time around with joy, peace and love.

Thank you Jesus for our miracle. We promise to look well after her.

Some pics of her from birth till now:

Hope for the Day!

2007-06-05T23:01:00.000-07:00

It has been a bit hectic at work and while on maternity leave, so could not update as I have wanted to, but hopefully will be back on track now, giving updates and hope and encouragement.

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"HOPE FOR THE DAY" from SilentGrief.com
http://www.silentgrief.com
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June 4, 2007
What's the hardest part about losing someone? That's the question that most people in grief answer every day of their lives. They know the answer because they live with it day in and day out. Separation. It's knowing that there is separation from the one that was loved so much.
Some people might say that the separation should be easy when you believe in heaven, but the person in grief will tell you that, although knowing you will meet again some day, the pain of separation is still the most difficult pain of all.
It's foolish to expect to "get over" a loss. The pain is always there. In time, the pain isn't always at the forefront, but it's still there. There's always the fantasy of what might have been. There are always those times when you will wonder what if things had been different.
On the hard days it helps to remember that the pain will not always be this acute. Hope has a way of seeping into the heart and lighting a small flame that eventually burns brighter and brighter until we can be happy on most days in spite of the grief. Hope assures us that we are never alone.
Hope anchors us to the thought of a better tomorrow. Hope shows us the miracles found in each new day. Hope allows us to lay our heads down on our pillow at night and sleep.
Hope keeps us sane on those days when we feel like we're losing it. And, hope surprises us by appearing at times when we least expect it. Life takes a sudden turn and we are given new strength and new doors are opened. A new friend walks into our life. A new job leads you to a strong support system. A new season gives you the boost your soul needs. Hope is amazing. It is never late, and it always arrives in just the right way! --Clara Hinton
"Hope is the link that anchors us to God." --Clara Hinton
"This hope we have as an anchor of the soul, a hope both sure and steadfast..." --Hebrews 6:19

Happy Easter

2007-04-13T02:38:00.000-07:00

Hello family!!!
Well we had an awesome Easter Weekend with lots of fun. Just thought I would share some pictures of the Easter Egg Hunt we had with the family, we had loads of fun and everyone took part including the adults. Nicole did a Survivor Treasure hunt for the older kids, and Deo put together a fun itenarary for the little ones, activities included egg&spoon race, duck walk, tug of war and races. The kids had an awesome time and was rewarded with lovely rich chocolate eggs of different sizes and shapes. They also all took one of their easter eggs that they received and blessed an underpriveleged child after the race. Most importantly it was great fun had by all and the most important lesson learnt on Good Friday was what Jesus did for us on the cross, I hope you all enjoy the photos!!! Until next time, thanks for coming along with me on my journey!!!

The guys

Getting ready for the race

Family group photo

Boys getting ready for race

Tug of War

Some more races..

The latest edition to the family: Emma (From Alfie's side)

Easter

2007-04-02T05:47:00.000-07:00

The First Easter Basket
Rebekah Montgomery
Editor, Right to the Heart of Women
Timidly, the child laid his small woven lunch basket into Jesus’ hands.
Like most children, the little boy liked to help. But could he? Would Jesus be annoyed with him, too?
Earlier, he had overheard the disciples discussing a problem. It seemed that among the entire crowd of people, only the little boy thought to bring his lunch. When Jesus told the disciples to feed the crowd, the boy eagerly offered it. And the disciples scoffed. Would Jesus?
Now Jesus unlatched the basket and looked inside. Nestled together were five barley buns and two fingerling fishes. Jesus grinned, almost laughed aloud. He shook His head. “The faith of a child!”
The boy twisted his stubbed great toe into the sand. Red-hot shame rose to the roots of his hair.
“Come here, lad,” Jesus called to the boy. He stooped low, extending His callused carpenter’s hand. The boy placed his own small one into it. Jesus’ big hand closed over the tiny one, holding it gently, firmly. Jesus looked into the child’s eyes. The little boy knew: his gift was accepted.
Jesus and the disciples gazed up the side of the mountain. Among the rocks, the crowd of about 5,000 men plus women and children were dispersed into little clusters. Children, once with twisted limbs, now danced and played on sound legs. The skin of the lepers was smooth, whole, and restored. The formerly blind were marveling over a world previously seen only through their fingertips.
“Have the people sit on the ground,” Jesus told His disciples.
Quickly, the word spread up the hillside and the crowd eagerly sat, facing Jesus. An expectant hush fell. Perhaps Jesus was going to teach again. Perhaps heal.
Still holding the child’s hand, He looked up into heaven as if He could see the very face of God. “Thank You,” He said simply.
The boy didn’t know if Jesus was thanking God for his lunch or him. Perhaps both.
Then Jesus handed the boy his lunch back. As the boy held his little basket, Jesus reached in and took a barley loaf. He tore a piece and dropped the bit into a nearby basket. Then He tore the loaf again. And again. And again. And again.
Inexplicably, the basket filled. As the torn pieces of bread reached the top of the basket, the silence was so heavy that when Jesus quietly asked for another basket, His voice could be heard to the back edges of the crowd.
His request spurred the stunned disciples to life.

“Another basket!” one of the disciples called out and it was produced.
Jesus repeated the process with a fish. Then a loaf. Then a fish
There seemed to be no end. Every stomach was filled. Twelve baskets were leftover.
No chocolate bunnies. No marshmallow peeps. Only loaves and fish. How, then, is the little boy’s lunch the first Easter basket?
Several ways:
Transformation. The lunch changed. It fed a multitude. Like the Carpenter who became the Foundation. Like the Crucified who became the Savior. Like the Dead Man who became the Resurrection and the Life.
Transformed like a sinner I know personally who was headed for destruction but who now — miraculously — has eternal life.
A miracle is repeated. Some time later, Jesus did this miracle again. And He does it today The bread, the meal of a former Galilean Boy who gave up His life for us, continues to feed the multitudes.
On the night He was betrayed, He took bread, gave thanks, and broke it.
As you take a wafer from the communion basket, a bit of matzo from a silvered tray, you join across time with the 5000 on a sun-drenched hillside by the Sea, the 12 in the Upper Room, and the untold multitudes who — over the last 2000 years — have eaten at the Lord’s table; you join across space with your brothers and sisters the world over who share your faith.
I’ll meet you at the Easter basket.

May you have a blessed Easter, and remember Jesus loves you, He died for you, your transgressions. Make Him the Lord and Saviour of your life and celebrate eternal life today!!
Until next time, may we meet along the journey
Love and hugs
Megan

Update on Dana

2007-03-28T04:35:00.000-07:00

Please forgive me for not updating in a while, I have been so busy!! My pregnancy is going very well and Dana is growing beautifully. We went for our 3d Scan yesterday and we got some cute pics. She is now 1.2kg and continuing to grow. Can you believe I only have 9 and a half weeks left before I meet her? Time really does fly by.

I will be going for my 30 wk appointment next week so will give another update then.

Till next time, keep the faith, keep on smiling, and live life to the fullest!!

ITS A GIRL!!!

2007-02-19T00:54:00.000-08:00

Sorry I have not been around to update for a while, we found out it was a girl!!!! We are so excited, so from now on, we will be calling our baby by name Dana!!! My appointment went very well, all is good on her side and she is growing nicely. She weighed 443grams, which I am sure is much more by now...lol!! Her heartbeat was 163 bpm and growing well according to measurements. Mommy is also doing well, her blood pressure is normal and only put on 1 kg.
My next appointment is on the 7th March, time is going by so fast now, cant believe I have 3 more months left, I really would like it to go by very fast!!! Unfortunately I dont have a pic of the ultrasound, because the radiologist blessed the 2 grannies with the pics.
Here's some food for thought:

GOD'S HELP

God's help never fails and how much we receive depends on how much our hearts can believe.

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You annoint my head with oil, my cup overflows. Psalm 23:5

Today your heart and cup can overflow.

Thanks so much for sharing this happiness with me, and coming along with me on my journey!!

Happy New Year!!!!

2007-01-31T05:00:00.001-08:00

Well, it has been a long time since I have posted, come to think of it, it was last year!!!! Happy New Year to everyone. 2007 I know is going to be a year of blessings, prosperity for everyone. Everyone is proclaiming this year the LORD's year and I cant wait to see the miracles and God's awesome hand working this year.
Here is some food for thought:

QUIETNESS OF MIND

Give us through the coming year quietness of mind. Teach us to be patient. And always to be kind.

I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. Psalm 40: 1

Today develop more patience and value the calm that can be yours.

Update on me:
I am now 20 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I cant believe that I am more than halfway and only have 3 more months to work until I go on Maternity Leave. I am so looking forward to it, and to hold my baby in my arms!! Oh, just 1 week and a half to go for my detailed scan, we are hoping to find out the gender, please pray that baby will play along!!!! We have already decided on names, so if it is a girl she will be called Dana, which means bright day and if its a boy he will be called Ethan, which means strong. It feels like an eternity to be waiting for next Friday, but hopefully it will be here soon, not many sleeps to go...lol!!!

I pray that all who read this blog will be blessed this year and that your purpose in God will be found. He loves you and wants the best for you no matter in what season you are in, hang on to that. Jesus loves you so much, that He laid down His life for you. No greater love has one ever found!!!!

Next week I hope to update with pictures of my growing bump and how baby is doing!!! Thank you for coming along on this journey.

Until next time
God bless!!

The gift of love

2006-12-17T22:39:00.000-08:00

The gift of love...
"And she will have a son, and you are to name him Jesus, for he will save his people from their sins." All of this occurred to fulfill the Lord’s message through his prophet: "Look! The virgin will conceive a child! She will give birth to a son, and they will call him Immanuel, which means 'God is with us.'" When Joseph woke up, he did as the angel of the Lord commanded and took Mary as his wife. But he did not have sexual relations with her until her son was born. And Joseph named him Jesus. Matthew 1:21-25 NLT

Christmas is a time of sharing, caring, giving, but above all, it is a time to demonstrate the powerful and living force called love... God is love. It was His intense love for you and I that caused Him to send His beloved Son to earth. This was the greatest gift ever given through all the ages. A gift cannot be earned, cannot be bought, and is freely given. Matthew 10:8 says that "freely ye have received, freely give". One thing that you and I can give is love. Oh that we would all get a revelation of the power of Gods love that manifested and demonstrated through us has the ability to impact people’s lives.
Love never fails! When we love those around us, we can be certain that change will come. This is a time when families should be together, but through circumstances some have become fragmented and divided.

May God give you the courage to reach out to your loved ones and bring healing to your family at this time. May we all respond and share His love with the lonely, hurt and disillusioned.
Freely we have received from Him, let us freely give during the festive season.

The Way of Love1 Corinthians Chapter 13 (Message Bible)
1If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate. 2If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing. 3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

Trust steadily in God, hope unswervingly, love extravagantly. And the best of the three is love.
May this season bring joy to you and your whole family.
God bless

Christmas is approaching!!!

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MEANINGFUL LIVING

If we lived Christmas each day as we should, and make it our aim to always do good, we'd find the lost key to meaningful living that comes not from getting but from unselfish giving.

They are always generous and lend freely; their children will be blessed. Psalm 37:26

Today live by the principle, "It's far more blessed to give than to receive"

I really want to bless all of you with a wonderful festive season, I will be going on holiday soon and will pop in from time to time to update my blog, so till next time.....

Have a good holiday, take it easy on the roads and remember,

God loves you!!!

MY BUMP PIC

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I hope you are all having a good morning, just thought I would share my 12 week bump pic with all of you, and some food for thought....

COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS

In counting our blessings, we find when we're through we've no reason at all to complain or be blue.

A faithful man will be richly blessed. - Proverbs 28:20

Today count your loved ones as your top priority and blessing. It is also important to be remembered by your loves ones. For which reason, characteristic, personality trait, or act of kindness do you wish to be remembered? Think about it. Work on it.

Hope you all have a blessed day, until next time....

My pregnancy thus far

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I am now in my 13 week of pregnancy. I give all praise and glory to God for reaching this stage.

I will from here on out update you on a monthly basis along with the birth and lots of pictures, thank you for sharing my miracle in progress with me.

Baby is doing well, the nuchal fold is in normal range so no worries there, and baby is now 65mm, heartbeat 160 bpm, and moving all around. I saw the little hands and feet and spine. It was a beautiful sight seeing my baby, I am on cloud nine. My EDD LMP is 16 June and EDG is 19 June, so my doc says he will be doing a Caesar at 38 weeks, so looks like it will be in the 2nd week, around the 5th June. So my next appointment is in 4 weeks time again on the 12th of January 2007!!!

Thank you for reading my story and coming along on this journey with me, until next time.....

Reflections up to the BFP!

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Well I realised that when you think you ready, God may not be ready. Paul and I needed to go through our journey of healing and be ready for the next baby. God did not want us to rob this baby growing inside of me of any love because I am still trying to deal with the loss of Hannah. I have healed, spiritually, emotionally and physically. Like I said Gods timing is perfect!!!

I am so happy, there is no way to describe it, but with this happiness comes fears of anxiety but something my Pastor's wife shared with us on Sunday was the following, it spoke to my heart so profoundly and from here on out will live it in my life as well.

Ps Karen shared her testimony and said she also had a loss and after that her next pg was so much different, to her it would only become a reality when it was physically there again in the flesh. It was a trying time for her, and God spoke to her and said when she feels anxious, full of fear, wake Jesus up in the boat, He will calm the storm. That was so powerful and spoke straight to my heart, which I know would speak to you as well, whoever is reading this and that is going through the same pain as what I did, these feelings of anxiety might come over you, but remember to wake Jesus up to calm your storm and bring the peace. I carried that with me and all I could say was thank you Lord, for everything and this blessing, with God it gets easier.

Thank you Lord for brothers and sisters strong in the faith that can build you up, encourage and motivate you.

All for your glory, Jesus!!

P.S May my life be an encouragement to you, and may you draw strength from the only One who gives it, and who loves you unconditionally and cares and wants to comfort you.

My journey of ttc

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Well let me say, when you think its gonna be easy to fall pregnant again as most people say it is once you have had a baby, you have got to be kidding..lol

For me, it just did not work out that way...

My ttc journey started in October 2005, once the doctor gave us the green light again. I thought I was ready to conceive again, but I guess God had other plans. Let me just add that I have difficulty in conceiving, as it took me about 2 and a half years to conceive Hannah. Well let me just say that month after month went by, tons of HPT's and months of BFN's!!!(Big Fat Negatives). I started going from regular periods to irregular periods and eventually in July of 2006, I skipped my period for 3 months. This was concerning for me and went back to my Ob to have myself checked out. From the appointment it was discovered that I had developed PCOS (Polycystic Ovavarian Syndrome). The short of it was, I could not ovulate and this made it difficult for me to conceive and it also affected my insulin levels. The Ob prescribed Glucophage and Clomid. After taking the Glucophage for 3 days, I got my period, praise Jesus!!!
I had the opportunity in the month of August with the Clomid (this assists in ovulation). Well I took it, had my progesterone test on the Cycle day of 21, but sadly I did not ovulate, as the progesterone levels were only 1.5 as opposed to the previous month of no treatment being 0.05. I decided I was not going to stress about it any longer and leave it in Gods hands, it will happen when the time is right. Well my period came and September rendered us another chance. I took all treatment as prescribed and waited patiently for CD21 to check if I had ovulated this time. CD21 came and I went for the routine blood tests. I am a little impatient by default and could not wait for my Ob to call so I decided to give the Lab a call myself to check my results and to my surprise the tech on the other side says it was 27.3!!!!

I could not believe it, I ovulated for the first time since October 2005, praise Jesus!!!!!! I actually called again just to make sure if I heard correctly!!! Well to my surprise I was on cloud nine for the whole weekend, and you can only imagine the wait now for me to be able to do a pregnancy test. My doctor called me the Monday morning to confirm that I definately did ovulate. I immediately updated my cyber friends on Hannahs Prayer and Baby Mania!!

This was the exact post:
Good news!!!!

Posted: Fri Oct 06, 2006 12:49 pm Post subject: Good news!!!

On Wed evening I did an HPT just for fun, knowing it may be too early because I would have only missed my period today. Anyway I got a faint positive, so decided to do another one Thursday morning and another faint positive. So I decided I don’t want to wonder and hope this is true, I am going in for a blood test to confirm whether its – or +. So I got the results back Thursday aft and it was positive!!!! But an early positive, so have to go back on Monday to do another blood test to check if the levels are rising as what they should be. My OB also confirmed it’s an early pregnancy +- 3to4 weeks, so it’s very exciting. I think I am still in shock; I have to pinch myself every time to believe it is actually true!!!!! Please pray that I will see big numbers on Monday. In your experience have any of you had an early positive? You can’t get a false positive in a blood test can you? I already feel bouts of nausea during the day and my boobs seem to have enlarged overnight….lol. But I tell you I can’t begin to tell you the joy in my heart right now, after being through so many years of ttc and then a loss, your innocence of pg just gets taken away. But I told myself this am, I am claiming my baby and I won’t allow doubt and fear to rob me of my joy, as I have waited so long for this. God is good!!!! God’s timing is always perfect. I give Him all praise and glory!!!
Lots of love Megan

Well as the saying goes the rest is history, but my history definately got me to this good place I am in right now, so until next time I will share with you the reflections of this wonderful news, and the progress of the pregnancy thus far.

My testimony

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I would say I only really started realising the value of love and life when I fell pregnant with Hannah in October of 2004. She was born on the 21st June 2005 at 36 weeks and was with Paul and I for 4 weeks and 2 days, she was ill and suffered from Congenital CMV, and sadly for us she went to be with Jesus on the 23 July 2005.
This was what I wrote of the bonding experience shared with her as a mother:

The First Hour
My relationship with my precious baby girl, Hannah started the moment I found out I was expecting. It grew into this beautiful bonding experience. Each day I would speak to my angel and tell her how much I loved her. The day she was born I was no stranger to her. I felt like I knew her my whole life and thanked the Lord for this opportunity of blessing me with her. As each day passed the bond grew stronger. It was as if I did not want to let go of her but hold on to her forever. Its such an awesome experience to have her look into your eyes and feel what she is thinking. There is no one else on this earth that matters so much to me than this incredible miracle of God. A love that is unexplainable and untouchable and unconditional. And even though my bonding experience lasted for only 1 month, it will last for eternity in my heart. My love for her was a deep song in my heart. If I never had that bonding experience with her, I would have had nothing. The memory lives on and I experience it each day with her for our hearts are intertwined forever. Nothing can prepare you for that love, but when it happens you are prepared.

First of all I would like to say is that my life has changed forever since then. I have realised the value of life and that it can be taken away from you in an instant. My relationship with God has changed and gotten stronger each passing day, as I learnt to rely on His strenght more and more each day as I grieved the life of my baby girl. Jesus has gotten me through the worst and best days, and I could not have gotten to the place I am now without Him in my life, My Wonderful, Counsellor, Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace, Mighty God.

My journey of grief has been a long road of hurting and pain, but thank God I have made it through the storm ready to face what other challenges life has to throw at me. A journey of grief is not an easy road, but with God's strength He makes it easy for you. I stood on the promises of God and the following verses in God's word became my shoulder of hope,

I can do all things through Jesus Christ who strengthens me - Phillipians 4:13

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. - Phillipians 4:5-7

Consider it pure joy, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. - James 1:2-4

Gods word is a lamp unto my feet, a strength for me each day, the Comforter of my Soul, until next time.....

The journey continues....

My most prized possessions

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***Updated with the latest addition to our family - precious Dana****

My Darling Husband, Hannah, Max, Margaret, and baby no 2

Megans Life Journey

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Welcome to my life journey,

Please bear with me if I become philosophical or emotional, but that is me. I hope you enjoy the story of my life, please come along with me on this road trip.

First of all a bit of background. My name is Megan, I am 27 yrs old and am a Born again Christian, I live, eat and breathe for Jesus Christ, my first love. My life centres around the will of God and plans and purposes He has for my life. I am married to a wonderful, compassionate and caring husband named Paul and we have been married now for 5 yrs and 7 months, we will celebrate our 6th Year Wedding anniversary on the 28th April 2007. We have 2 furbabies, Max and Margaret. We have 1 baby in heaven, Hannah Caitlyn and expecting baby no 2 in early June, I am currently 13 weeks pregnant.

In my next entry, I will show you pictures of my most prized possessions and update you until this point in my life of the journey I have gone through thus far, my life and journeys I give glory to Jesus.